I Give Up!!

Ay yai yai! I am seriously at my wit's end about this whole sleeping/CIO/nursing situation we have at home. I. AM. LOSING. MY. MIND.

WHERE DID MY SWEET SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT BABY GO???


It takes a HUGE amount of willpower to go against my Mommy instinct and let the Cub CIO. It drives both me and the hubs bonkers. But we've been told it's the best thing for him, he needs to learn to soothe himself, blah blah blah. That's great and I don't disagree but IT'S NOT WORKING - and IT'S NOT WORKING FOR US.

I hear the wonderful stories about some parents letting their kids CIO and two days later - sleeping through the night. Of course, this isn't happening in our house. EVERY night for the umpteenth day in a row, he has woken up crying. Sometimes, he'd fall back to sleep but lately he's getting more and more hysterical.

So last night, I gave up. Or shall I say, I gave in.

He was just HYSTERICALLY screaming/crying so I went and got him. He was wet. We're trying out some new nighttime diapers so unfortunately, it happens. It just BREAKS my heart when he's crying like that, tears and all. So I was able to calm him down and at HIS insistence, I nursed him. If this is what he needs to feel safe and comforted, who am I to really tell him no? Especially at 10 months. I mean, c'mon - seriously? He's not going to be 13 begging to be nursed, right?

That was at 1 o'clock this morning. At 1:30a, I crawled back into bed until my alarm went off around 5:20a. Then I got up, headed into Cub's room and as soon as I opened his door his head popped up off his pillow and he immediately sat up. I nursed him for a good 20 minutes, then he was back asleep... hopefully he slept in a little bit for Pappa, but I'm DONE with the screaming and crying.